Here I am sitting in my uncle's place, in front of his system and checking out websites of various airlines....wondering if I'll EVER get a job. And I am thinking how life will be if I actually do get one..... I mean yeah, its my chosen field and all that but am I actually ready to take on something as huge a responsibility as a job and all?? I will actually be considered an employee of some company and people will actually start taking me seriously;) wOW!!
I know that sounds lame but then the thought kinda freaks me out a little. And all this free time (I know I sound like Ross of F.R.I.E.N.D.S saying that he's taking a sabbatical from work) has me questioning myself and my abilities......and this is what always happens when I am given time to actually sit and think. All the time, I take quick decisions and they hit or miss (thankfully hit most of the time) and there are always the ones who are crazy enough to love me who can bring me back to Earth if I start making any too-wild decisions.... But always, the doom of my life comes when I think. I think and think and think and finally manage to convince myself that nowhere is exactly where I'm going.
I have always been a kind of go-getter and anything that requires time doesn't really go down well with me. For me, everything has to happen quick... fataafat. Exams have to be finished in a week, results the next week, career decisions made the next, admissions got the next... actually I'd prefer everything done in ONE week. There has been a time when three major decisions was made by me in the same day and somehow I managed to convince Ma to agree to all of it.
My point is, I have always lived in this perfect world of mine where everything always works out my way but what happens when I get a job and everything goes the opposite to the way I want...will I start having a nervous breakdown ( most probably) or ll I manage?? The fact remains that I chose the road less trodden and small decisions & actions can make or break my career.
Is it just me or does everybody have a time when they wonder if they can actually deliver when it matters most or just break and fade onto a non-entity?
I know that sounds lame but then the thought kinda freaks me out a little. And all this free time (I know I sound like Ross of F.R.I.E.N.D.S saying that he's taking a sabbatical from work) has me questioning myself and my abilities......and this is what always happens when I am given time to actually sit and think. All the time, I take quick decisions and they hit or miss (thankfully hit most of the time) and there are always the ones who are crazy enough to love me who can bring me back to Earth if I start making any too-wild decisions.... But always, the doom of my life comes when I think. I think and think and think and finally manage to convince myself that nowhere is exactly where I'm going.
I have always been a kind of go-getter and anything that requires time doesn't really go down well with me. For me, everything has to happen quick... fataafat. Exams have to be finished in a week, results the next week, career decisions made the next, admissions got the next... actually I'd prefer everything done in ONE week. There has been a time when three major decisions was made by me in the same day and somehow I managed to convince Ma to agree to all of it.
My point is, I have always lived in this perfect world of mine where everything always works out my way but what happens when I get a job and everything goes the opposite to the way I want...will I start having a nervous breakdown ( most probably) or ll I manage?? The fact remains that I chose the road less trodden and small decisions & actions can make or break my career.
Is it just me or does everybody have a time when they wonder if they can actually deliver when it matters most or just break and fade onto a non-entity?
1. Have faith in yourself... Be confident.
ReplyDelete2. Have patience.
3. Please develop some hobby - you write well, so make your blog more active and spend time on it. Never allow yourself to feel bored.
4. Life is beautiful. A mere career doesn't make life what it should be. So don't take it too seriously.
5. When you are in an unexpected or unfavourable situation, always think of people in worse situations, thank God you are not there and then say to yourself, "This is nothing. I'll sail through this rough patch and come out on top, because I am Priyanka. I can not fail." Trust me, it gives you oodles of courage.
All the very best for your career. I know you can succeed. And yeah, be more frequent with your posts...
since u r a go getter...i dont think u hav to worry a lot...coz...ull get it somehow..after reading ur blog i felt ur a very brave n strong person...so such apprehensions doest suit u...
ReplyDeletejus smile n b confident..n victory will b ur's ...sure!
Thanx guys...
ReplyDeleteoye ther s sumthin for us as a fate and no one should b in a position of pertubation if they fail to get it in first attempt..ur born to acheive sumthin ..so b on ur path and just do wat ur heart says ..ur path will b full of roses..[:)]..i beleive u surely cross the oceans..al te best
ReplyDeleteu know wat my answer to dat is...don't think too much! thinking and worrying abt ur future ain't gonna take u newhr...u cant jus jump into ur future in 1 day...u've gotta make it urself day by day...so don't waste too much time...make d most of what u've got now and it'll definitely lead to somethin gud ltr...(too philosophical, i kno...jus tryin somethin different dan useless goofy answers;) )
ReplyDeleteI don't really know what you're doing or why this is your thought process, but some people just take decisions on the spot and it works out for them, and some others need deliberation, invariably your gut feel will be right, but you need to gauge for yourself if what you are deciding on is worth all that. Sometimes it's easier to take a decision when it is something you are informed about, sometimes not, but ultimately it's you who has to live with it, so, blind faith might not always work!
ReplyDeleteCarpe Diem, and give it the best you've got. No regrets..
since u r a go getter...i dont think u hav to worry a lot...coz...ull get it somehow..after reading ur blog i felt ur a very brave n strong person...so such apprehensions doest suit u...
ReplyDeletejus smile n b confident..n victory will b ur's ...sure!
Everybody faces this. Chill.
ReplyDeleteAnd then comes marriage... :P