16 Jul 2011

KA-BLOOEY! goes my mind

Warning: The following can only be classified as incoherent rambling. Do not go further if you even mildly suspect that you might not be interested. Do not look for sense, do not look for order and most certainly do not try to understand.


What do you do when that you have a jealousy attack


When that bloody green monster puts it's hand through your mouth, reaches for your intestines and twists them all up in a bundle so tight that you feel you might die from the pain. 
When you feel stupid knowing that, rationally speaking, there is no need for that particular emotion but the feeling is so irrational, so primal, that you have no control; you just fall, spiraling headlong into despair. You feel helpless and lost in addition to stupidity.
When you feel what is yours has another side which was, is and never will be yours?
When your insides feel cold and your choking up.


And to voice it out to even the one you consider the most understanding will be pushing them away and driving the cleaver further into the wood.
So basically, this is what is called a mind-fuck.
Thank you, Universe, for conspiring to make me feel EVERY emotion possible, you didn't have to be so kind.
And no, I'm not insecure.


Anyway, Harry Potter is over. As in over over. That makes me depressed to say the least. Not that the movies ever made me happy; I have issues with the makers cutting out my most favorite parts of the books in the movies (or having screwed it up so bad that I despise the scene now). 






But it's the end of an era.
The end of, what I feel, is my childhood.
And that makes me even more depressed.






J.K.Rowling, I know everybody has said everything there is to say, but I will still say one last time that - You. Are. Legend. And you'll have my eternal love and gratefulness for creating Harry.
I have always been jealous of everyone who makes money fast. Except her. She deserves every bit of everything that she gets and much, much more.


And thank you, Radcliffe, for making Harry come to life. For looking like a dork when you needed to and never being too perfect.
And I know that Pottermore is going to suck. 
So bye Harry Potter, you will always be a precious, much-cherished memory.




Have you seen cherry blossoms, they are beautiful. 














They are more than beautiful, they are exquisite.


College is about to start. I'm actually happy going back; hostel IS fun, notwithstanding the wardens. Hopefully, this time around, things will be less complicated, with less bitchiness (my class is full of bitches, myself included), less holier-than-thou's (full of them too), less ego-clashes (the egos are PUNY but they still insist on clashing and making life difficult for the rest of us), less jealousy (and related problems) and more pure, clean fun.
Why?
Because this is the last year I'm going to be sitting in a classroom for a long time to come.


P.S: This is me venting. So ignore. And I told you not to try and make sense.
P.P.S: What DO you do when jealousy strikes, help me out here.
P.P.S.S: I promise to come up with a post that doesn't scream *the author is frikkin' looney* as soon as I shake off this murderous mood. 
P.P.P.S.S: Red Handed has agreed to guest post for me. YAY. 
*dramatically* COMING SOON!




20 comments:

  1. For me, Potter is never really over...I stopped watching the movies after the 3rd one because it was so atrocious...but I re-read the books over and over. Currently re-reading them and I'm on the 6th one. Going back to college huh? I want to study again...sigh. But I don't want to give up work either...

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  2. Brrrrrrrrr! Thats me shuddering!
    How many thoughts crossed ur mind while writing tht eh babe?
    When i feel jealous, i think f all the bad things about the one m jealous f. The aspects he/she totally lacks. Tht helped for a min and then u go blind again.

    Not a fan f Harry Potter but yes! It gave a new theme and magical feeling to literature and movies. I wont b missing him. Heh dont bite me!

    I b happy to write for one f my fav looney blogger. Being same is easy and we like being different. Heh.

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  3. haha... i had the most horrible week ever and right now i feel jealous of every single person whose life is even slightly better than mine! But its a passing phase and ill get over it.. I dont do anything in particular and it eats me up from inside, which is bad... but am used to it by now!

    I'll miss harry potter too... although i love the books more than the movies. But once the books were finished, i had only the movies to look forward to... and now even thats over!

    College is the best phase of life. Enjoy while you can!

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  4. If this is rambling.. I wonder what ul see when you read random excerpts of my rambling mind :P lol!

    Love it :) Love the jealousy part best. :)
    Understand the back to college part most. :)
    Just saw potter. Will miss it. :)

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  5. Harry Potter over. No one makes me forget it and move on. Eh?

    Well jealousy? the post was totally random hundreds of difffrent thought crossing your mind at once. but yeah it happens I guess.

    Didnt make sense but loved the post.

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  6. Don't worry, you're not the only one do be feeling this today. There are many. Many would be an understatement.

    Cheers,
    Blasphemous Aesthete

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  7. @ Psych Babbler, count yourself among the lucky ones who chooses to see the positive side:( The last book left a big fat hole in my life and the last movie is just making it bigger. Wanna switch places for a month or two?;D I can't wait to get started with work.

    @ Red Handed, that's my though process for you milady;P only that I chose to list out only four of the stream. No, no I'm not jealous OF someone, I'm jealous FOR someone.
    MEanie. Ah well, to each his own, I suppose:)

    Yes, we do \m/

    @ Chandana, awww, hopefully the next one will be a lot more wow ok? And you shouldn't be 'used' to it-_- it's bad, you know that. Talk about it. Or lamer (like me), write about it:D
    Oh, that I will:D

    @ Srinidhi, you are worse? GOOD lord!! o_0
    Thanks:)

    @ Nia Charms, not a fan I take it?:P

    :D I'm not usually this mental. Promise.
    Thanks.

    @ Blasphemous Aesthete, so I can honestly believe that I'm not bonkers and unstable? :D

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  8. hehe I portrayed myself wrong huh? Its like I am trying to get over the depression but people are not letting me get over it.

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  9. Haha, I just wrote about Harry Potter and then came and read this. But shit, it rally is over. Major depression.

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  10. Oww. Whoops, my bad:\
    Then welcome to the club and the tissues are over there :'(
    Hopefully, we learn to live with it with time.

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  11. Aah. What a discovery.
    I like this blog. I like this blogger.

    And relax. That's the thing about emotions, it's like sitting on a see-saw.

    And also, Pottermore *might* just be nice.

    Hope. Always have hope.

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  12. @ Anish, you wrote better, I rambled :\

    @ Peevie, not anywhere as kablooey as yours:) But thanks:D
    Relaxing on a see-saw - won't it cause you to go flying when the other person sits down?
    Hope. Yes. I'm having issues with hope ever since the last book came out:\

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  13. I'm kinda putting off watching the last HP movie, because then I'll have to really accept that it's over. Queen of Denial, thy name is Divya. It was hard enough when the book got over. I comforted myself saying that the movie is still remaining, as much as some of them suck. Now... I've never felt this kind of an obsession for anything, you know.

    And the whole point of having a blog is that you can ramble and nobody will stop you. I happen to ace at that. :/ So ramble away, lady!

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  14. @ Spiff, Denial sounds just about right. And I get it completely, obsession-thy name is Priyanka:P

    :D Your posts are anything but random; if that's your rambling then I'd hate to see your organised ones, you'll whoop my tushy all the way back to nowheresville:)

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  15. Madame, see-saw. On a see-saw you go up and then you come down. But if you're really fat then you just stay down.

    So shed off some of that weighty emotions, alright?

    Chin up.

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  16. @ PV Juice, :D I meant if the other person is fat and you're like REALLY thin; then won't you go flying once they sit and stay down?
    Ah :P I'm pointless:)

    Thanks:)

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  17. @ PV Juice, :D I meant if the other person is fat and you're like REALLY thin; then won't you go flying once they sit and stay down?
    Ah :P I'm pointless:)

    Thanks:)

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  18. Oww. Whoops, my bad:\
    Then welcome to the club and the tissues are over there :'(
    Hopefully, we learn to live with it with time.

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  19. If this is rambling.. I wonder what ul see when you read random excerpts of my rambling mind :P lol!

    Love it :) Love the jealousy part best. :)
    Understand the back to college part most. :)
    Just saw potter. Will miss it. :)

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  20. @ Psych Babbler, count yourself among the lucky ones who chooses to see the positive side:( The last book left a big fat hole in my life and the last movie is just making it bigger. Wanna switch places for a month or two?;D I can't wait to get started with work.

    @ Red Handed, that's my though process for you milady;P only that I chose to list out only four of the stream. No, no I'm not jealous OF someone, I'm jealous FOR someone.
    MEanie. Ah well, to each his own, I suppose:)

    Yes, we do \m/

    @ Chandana, awww, hopefully the next one will be a lot more wow ok? And you shouldn't be 'used' to it-_- it's bad, you know that. Talk about it. Or lamer (like me), write about it:D
    Oh, that I will:D

    @ Srinidhi, you are worse? GOOD lord!! o_0
    Thanks:)

    @ Nia Charms, not a fan I take it?:P

    :D I'm not usually this mental. Promise.
    Thanks.

    @ Blasphemous Aesthete, so I can honestly believe that I'm not bonkers and unstable? :D

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