... How fast time passes by.
How you block out things you thought were most important.
How much things change.
How many emotions one person can make you feel and not in a good way.
How there are certain days when the sun shines so bright outside that it hurts your eyes but it refuses to dispel the darkness that tiptoes around your aura threatening to engulf you. (wow, that's dramatic)
How some feelings never change.
How some feelings change so much that you wonder why you felt them in the first place.
How long you can go without the things that you loved the most.
How much you can change, as a person, over the short period of one year.
How different a person you actually are from who you thought you were.
How much effort it takes to put a smile on your own face just to ensure that people don't wonder why you always have a hangdog expression.
How little it takes to fall apart.
How difficult it is to just believe the words that come out of a person's mouth instead of questioning every intention, every thought behind it.
How much you have missed out on in a world that was your world.
How many people, relationships you have had to lose because you do not have the strength to explain.
How cynical you have become of pretty much everything.
How long it has been since you actually had a bar of good, solid, comforting chocolate.
How small things that you left in the past come back to make you smile.
How much courage you get in knowing that you are strong enough to still want to say bring it on.
How much happiness it infuses in you to know that someone still needs your shoulder.
How awesome it is when you can cross the road during peaktime traffic all by yourself.
How brilliant it is to have a group of people who just let you be and make you laugh.
How much hope it gives you that those people might let you call them your friends.
How much it means to know that someone is trying to make you laugh despite everything.
How high you get on being noticed for having potential.
How much it means when someone believes in you with a steadfastness you have yet to see in others' eyes.
How the person you thought you hated is the only one who really believed in you, fought for you.
How funny Will & Grace is.
How some people have the knack of saying exactly what you want to hear and despite your cynicsm, you believe in them.
How mindnumbingly, awesome sukhapuri really is.
A long way, I have come.
A long way, I have to go.
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I leave you to drool over this monstrosity from Indijoe's, Bangalore. A cake that almost got me a promotion, one that made me sick of food itself for well over a week. |
P.S: I HAD to write a depressing post before I could move past, so COME ON and cut me some slack, won't you? If anybody still visits this place, that is :D
P.P.S: I lost months of work that I did on my blog and a couple of pages that I loved as well, all because of a tiny mistake I made. Ah well, let's start from scratch, shall we?
Those *hows* make us learn. It's painful to learn, but somehow we'll get over it and become wiser.
ReplyDeleteOh no worries. I'm still here till today, reading your post! Welcome back then? :)
Ps : I wrote a post venting out my frustration too. So it's okay, we're rowing in the same boat!
We will get over it but the wiser part might just not be applicable in my case :P
DeleteThank you, N :)
Glad to have some company!
Actually, It's too Surprising.
ReplyDeleteAnd that a lot of questions.
Sorry, can't cut you a slack unless we get that cake. :P (I saw that pic on your Tumblr also, I guess)
Btw where exactly is Indijoe in Bangalore. (Help me out here.)
Oh, tiny mistake? What was that? Can't it be corrected, I mean if its tiny, it could be corrected, right? Well, if you still want to start from scratch, hmm... we shall then. :P
Anyways, Take Care and Keep writing. :)
Lot of rhetorical questions :)
DeleteThat cake is something that you, trust me on this one, do NOT want to attempt tackling alone. Indijoe's is on Church Street, right opposite the Empire there. Worth several visits, especially if you are a sizzler fan :)
I lost my header and half my html coding, I don't think that can be replaced :(
Thank you for visiting, Ajay :)
Yeah. :)
DeleteNot alone? Well there, I got a tiny problem. No one I know is that of a chocolate / cake or even a sizzler fan. And thanks for the address info, I shall try it out pretty soon.
Oh, But you could make a better and a beautiful one. May be I can help too. :D
And I might do that too often. You might get tired of writing that everytime. :P
I came running when i read your comment! :O
ReplyDeleteI needed a little dose of PeeVee back in my life! :'(
Nevermind that you has to go for a bit, glad to see that you are back. :D
:D Aww, thank you for the lowe, K!! I used to read all your posts though :)
DeleteAll smiles :)
ReplyDeleteAre you now, S? :)
DeletePeeVee, yet another award for you here. :D
ReplyDeletehttp://sushmit-rivendell.blogspot.in/2013/03/awards-and-rewards.html
Womaigad, even when I wasn't around!! Thank you so very much, it IS an honor, Msiter! :)
DeleteThis one made me smile...especially the Sukhapuri part. How dearly I miss Bangalore. Tch! :) :D Glad to see you back here!! :D I have to push myself out of this bloody writing exile. Help?
ReplyDeleteCome sometime, Laddu, and have sukha with me:)
DeleteThank you...
Start writing something, anything. I waited for inspiration/motivation and I wrote less than twelve posts a year. So get ON IT!!! Post something by, lets say, before the weekend.
YES YES YES TO everything!!!!!
ReplyDeleteand double yes to sukhapuri.
Babe I wasnt able to comment earlier...ur blog was having a different layout?
and only my latest post is a sad smiley type....:D
nd Yes i will make u laugh next time :D
:D you do NOT get to talk, woman. The amount of weight you have lost is sinful.
DeleteYeah, it was all messed up, now its okay right? Screw dynamic views.
I know, I have been lurking around and reading :)
Thank you!
PeeVee, it is so refreshing to see you write. I open up my reader today and there is a post notification from your blog!!!!!! The mere thought you are back brought a huge grin to my face :)
ReplyDeleteAnd yes it is indeed surprising that life gives us all those you have mentioned and still waits to give much more!! I could relate to every line that you have written.
Until later,
Keirthana :)
Aww, thank you, K:)
DeleteGood to know, strike that, amazing to know people still even remember me :):)<3
Oh Thank God you are back :D
ReplyDeleteI've missed you :)
Still around, Lioness? :D Go buy pretty jewelry for you big day, I say!! Shooo!! :D
DeleteThank you <3
Heya! beautiful use of words :)
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Welcome to the space and thank you:)
DeleteI will check it out, as well.
Welcome back :)
ReplyDeleteLoved it and could relate to nearly all of it. :)
Thank you, Madame :)
DeleteAh. Welcome back, brave girl. We've all been here. Haven't we??
ReplyDeleteHaven't been here for quite some time. Have a lot to catch up.
Thank you, T. Vice versa, as well :)
Deletenice to see you back . I echo Keirthana when she commented that when I saw your blog was updated , I came here immediately and was not dissappointed. :) Do write more often..
ReplyDeleteI will try to, Madame. And thank you so much :)
DeleteSometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
ReplyDeleteWelcome back :-)
Thank you, Madame :)
DeleteHow nice to read your post after a long break :)
ReplyDeleteThanks! :)
DeleteDid someone say Sukha puri and Cake? I knew I smelt something yummy here :P.
ReplyDeleteAlso, welcome back.
:D Haha... I knew that'd reel you in :P
DeleteThank you, been too long :)
Nice to see ur post after a long time. I was really happy to see it on my dashboard and came quickly here to read :)
ReplyDeleteOnly a few people can write well. You are blessed with a fine style of writing. Please don't leave it when you are emotional! God Bless You
Thank you, Chech :)
DeleteMissed you!! And I love the new blog look :D
ReplyDeleteI had no idea I missed your random posts so much :D :D This makes me feel hungry (your blog look that is :P )
Hahaha... I think that's one of my specialities :D Thank you, Em:)
DeleteHow much they've missed you. Welcome back, boss.
ReplyDeleteYen da kalaikyre...:P
DeleteThanks :D
PeeeeeVeeeee... You know I was so pissed on you that you siddenly stopped writing!!
ReplyDeleteYou've no idea how much happy I'm seeing your post <3
I missed you :(
I love you :* ({})
Awww... I missed being here too, principally because of people like you who shower me with so much of love and attention that I wonder what I did to deserve it :) Thank you so much for that :)
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