I know I should have come. But should I have come even if it meant almost nothing to me?
You have known my bluntness the longest; would you have rather that I came despite, and did some fake smiling, a bit of hated (by both of us) socializing and left? Or does it suffice that I wish you the very, very best with the path you have chosen for yourself? Do believe me when I say I wish for all your dreams to come true, that life works out for you, even when it doesn’t have me in it?
I think about you all the time.